I had my ultrasound and got to see that glorious heartbeat! I am measuring exactly where I knew I would be(a week later than what the drs are using as my due date, but I know my cycles lol).
I keep reminding myself I am seeing student drs and I should be patient with them as they learn. The problem is they want to do every test imaginable, they have already said they will induce me because I have a history of short labors during my homebirths, and they want to put me on anti seizure meds despite a lack of seizures for a considerable amount of time. So I remain patient but firm and try to show them the beauty of a natural process . :)
I am starting to not be as sick,Praise the Lord!!! It still hits hard at night, but I am functioning during the day much better now. My home is clean and organized again, I am cooking creatively again, I even made laundry soap for the first time. It was easy peasy btw, I will definitely keep that up.

I am 7 weeks now. The queasiness is overwhelming. I made my first appt for the 22nd. It will merely be the nurse visit to get history and all, hopefully I will get an actual appt quickly after that. I hate fearing another missed miscarriage, but it is hard to truly give in to excitement and bond with this baby until I Know there is a baby growing. I know that sounds negative, and I am acyually thrilled to be experiencing the symptoms...it just doesn't seem real that I will hold a new wee one in April/May. Be gone negativity!
The goats head weeds are back. It is so rewarding to see it not grow where we weeded last year. If we stay on top of it each year it should get easier and easier.
There have been no showings of the house. I know it only takes one person at the right time, I do not feel discouraged at all. If we stay here so be it. I do yearn for up north though!
The honey bun cake I baked is done and I am so eager to go eat a nice gooey warm piece!

5 weeks and so far so good. :) The nausea is kicking in, for which I am glad. I still compulsively check every time I go to the restroom to make sure there is no blood...I truly earnestly strongly pray this one works out. The kidlets are truly strongly earnestly wanting twins. They grill me every day about how twins work...how would we know if they were identical, science of it all, random dreaminess of it. I love that they love babies and kids, and that they desire more siblings instead of dreading them. Big mama sigh.
We are gearing up to get started with the rabbits.I am pretty excited about this, now that we have found chickens to be so easy to butcher I think rabbits will be doable and a better meat. We are also going to get goats in the spring(maybe sooner, but it would have to fall into our laps).
School is going great. This is easily looking like our best year(potentially) and we are all enjoying the workload. I thought the kids might feel overwhelmed with how much more I planned, but they aren't. The extra read alouds are making my jaw hurt, but I have a few teeth that need some attention and I think it is a compound problem.
My dreads are doing amazing. I am at almost 2 months and they are fairly locked! I got some special shampoo on Etsy that has been really good also, although I don't actually like the smell of it. I may get the commercial dread shampoo just for the smell! This one I bought makes my hair smell clean, it just doesn't have a strong peppermint smell that I like. I suppose I could add a few drops of essential oil...we shall see.

I will be leaving in an hour to take Gavin to the audiologist. I am so glad we have a Dr who finally listened to me, but I admit to being nervous about what they will find. In one case...what if they find nothing? How can we fix the issue if there is no issue? On the other hand...there could be something wrong. I have an hour and a half drive to think about this.

I tested again today, at 11dpo and got a seriously dark, good line! I am a little surprised at how much darker the line is in less 28 hours, but happy happy happy. I am feeling very smell sensitive, a little "urpy"(not burps, or gagging, but bubbly and odd). I am praying and yearning for this pregnancy to be viable and strong.
Tomorrow is a women's breakfast at church. I am debating between cinnamon roll pancakes or a bacon,egg, and cheese bread roll. Both are recipes I found on Pinterest and they both look really good, in opposite ways.

10 DPO and I got a positive this morning!!! I am so excited, but am not saying anything,even to Brian, until I get three more positives over the next week. I will test every two days to make sure the line gets stronger. I am so very hopeful,happy,nervous,anxious,jubilant,elated!!! It only adds to my happiness that my due date will be Epiphany's 3rd birthday.

We started school today. It went wonderfully until Brian called from town and asked me to come pick him up, midway through the day. We had already covered so much that it was not really an issue(back to learning momentum!) . Now the van is fixed, hurrah!
The kids drew self portraits for art and they all kinda impressed me with how far they have come in the last year! Christian especially seems to have some real talent. I am looking into art instruction for him...I want to really help him go where his strength is.
Pip should be getting the all clear on Wednesday and I am so glad. I feel like I have been very disconnected with outside since she has had to stay in. It will be good for both of us to resume walks every night, instead of me sneaking out when I get a chance.
I will test on Wednesday as well. I was looking at my tracking software an I could potentially get a bfp that early. I know our timing was dead on, and I have been having a lot of symptoms. I am so very hopeful.