Lol, I reread the last post and it is comical now to say that life was definitely moving forward. While I was feeling so down and tired my body had moved forward entirely, and gone and accepted new life. I am now 7 weeks along with a baby that already has a strong heartbeat(122) and has been seen on ultrasound, measuring perfectly. I am due on Valentines Day,2015. I am tired, oh yes, but it is a tired I can relish. I am sick, but I am happily dealing with that as I think of the little being growing stronger each day. With each loss I have come more and more to acceptance that I am very small in this life, that the Lord is truly in control, and even the sorrowful things have meaning and importance. This is actually very reassuring for me.
I am very happy that Brian and I have come up with a generic plan. Our hearts both long to be back in MI. Our physical reality makes that not possible yet. We are aiming to be back up there in the next five years. Financially we should be able to do it that way with no difficulties. It feels good to have a plan in place to get back "home".
The oldest three children and Brian are getting ready to leave this week to travel to Nashville for the International Youth Convention. It is a huge meeting that takes place every other year for the Church of God youth. Brian is obviously going as a chaperone, and he has really been feeling led to start working more with the youth. I believe this will be important when we go back to MI, but am so glad he is open to it here too.