Family Fun

Family Fun

Saturday, April 23, 2011

Ack, it has been awhile now since I posted. I tend to pull way back and stop posting here or on any forums when I am thinking alot lol.
The thrift store/food pantry opened last week. We have handed out alot of food already, and the store is doing pretty well. The residents seem as thrilled about the fact that someone thought they were worth opening a store for as they do about the food. All clothing is $1, and it is nice! I don't put out anything stained or faded...that goes in the free bin which has been going like wildfire. Starbucks donates all their leftovers to us, so people get REALLY good snacks while they are shopping. Lol, I never even ate at starbucks!
The downside is that I see all this cool stuff going out and sometimes I buy it which does not help me declutter! I got a very fun race car bed for Griffon. It is a $250 bed, I bought it for $35. There were two of them and the lady that bought the other one is even more thrilled than I am. I have cleaned out alot of my stuff to take up there. We price everything very cheap and it moves fast. Every dollar that comes in goes to buying food. I am very happy about the whole endeavor.
I am finally starting to see my body slow down after the miscarriage. Actually...I think I ovulated again already, with no period between, so I will be testing in 2 weeks. I would say oops but then that would sound as if I am not happy at the thought. I mean oops that it happened so quickly, but I didn't plan it and couldn't have forseen it. I talked to my midwife and she is fine with it, although she did say a full cycle would be a good idea. She knows we don't prevent though.
My two irl friends who are due the week before I was are finding out the genders now.1 is having a girl and the other is going in next week. It is getting easier not to get a lump when I think of how badly I wanted to be doing all those things too. The store keeps my mind busy, I have been so blessed to open my eyes and do more for the kidlets . It is like this whole thing made me more determined to live each moment. I know that sounds morbid, but I do feel like it brought me to a fuller appreciation of how close death is to us all. I want my babies to have alot of memories of me, all laughter and smiles!

Friday, April 1, 2011

I am so tired. So done with Drs.
I called my dr yesterday. He said that this was now an emergency situation, to go to the ER and get the D and C done. To not leave without having it done. I went. The ER dr agreed that there is retained tissue. He agreed that I warrant a D&C. He called the ob and she is too busy to do it right now. Send me home and she will see me next Thursday. I should try to stay in bed and rest, and they are sorry I can't stand up without blacking out. I am beyond baffled. I didn't want a D&C at first...I wanted this to happen naturally. It started too, but I knew it wasn't right/normal. I went to the Dr, followed advice, keep getting told the same thing. But no one is helping me!!! I am not a person who does well accepting help. I do not like to be weak. I can not even function physically right now. I am not myself. And I am scheduled to "meet" with the dr 2 full weeks after this started. I am too exhausted to know what to do. I believe fully that God will cover my healing, and I am loading up on iron and protein. I had encapsulated my placenta from Epiphany's birth, and am taking one pill per day. That has definitely helped. But...I feel so let down by the drs, by the system. I thought about going to a different hospital, but I am really just too sad and blown away to play this game. Ugh...I hate to whine, and I don't really even know what to say about it all, but it just isn't right.
Brian has been so kind and helpful. He has taken off work twice for this now(and if he doesn't work he doesn't get paid). He went to the store and bought me V8 juices and two roasts lol. He pats my arm or head every time he walks by. Little things that just let me know even more than ever that he loves me.
I will be a mom to a teenager in a week. Trinity is having a sleepover next Friday and she is very excited. She invited all the girls from youth group. I believe most of them are coming! I made plans for the boys to have a sleepover at their friends house that day. Lol...Once again, I am tired, and all the details are tiring. I just need to be back to full strength, like now. ;)