Hard , sad day. I went to the ER today and found out that my 9 week pregnancy is over. I am so sad, and the kids are so sad. I know it will all be fine, I know that I am already abundantly blessed. I am still sad. I do have a sense of peace though.
My body still thinks I am pregnant and the dr wants to do a d&c on Monday. I am going to contact my midwife to see what herbs she recommends...I do not want a d&c if I can help it. Cest' la vie. I will be ok.

I have a big batch of granola in the oven, pizza dough rising. School is mostly done. Laundry is halfway done. I just had to stop and eat a sunny side up egg because the nausea is getting overwhelming.
We have a rat problem. We caught 3 so far. They are huge. I am very unhappy that they are here. One got caught in the trap and dragged the trap down under the house. Brian is not sure how we are going to retrieve that one :( .It must be retrieved though! I can't even imagine the smell that would follow a dead giant rat!
9 weeks tomorrow. I almost have my paperwork filled out for insurance...it is a small book!

Sooo tired!!! So far today: Went to Walmart and bought 3 trees, 2 plants, curtains for 5 windows, spray paint , and shredded cheese. Came home, moved 60 chicks outdoors, situated them with a heat lamp and food and water(had to carry them 3 at a time, so 20 trips!) My sis showed up to drop off her son and daughter for me to watch during spring break. Made lunch(didn't eat anything) , laid more tile in the bathroom, folded a load of laundry, hung the blanket outside, switched another load to the drier, started another load in the wash. Hung the new curtain rods and curtains, cleaned the old chick cage, and moved the bantams in. planted the trees and plants, weeded. I didn't count how many times I helped wee ones with wee issues...that is second nature and doesn't seem too much like work. I am tired though!And there is so much more to do. I forget each year how much work spring is, and we are trying to refinance the house on top of that so the assessor is coming out this week. We need to get a good appraisal so we can do the refinance...it won't be worth it if the amount is not high enough to drop the extra insurance.So.
I made salsa last night...it was fantastic! I used an Anaheim pepper instead of a jalapeno and I think I prefer the spice so next time I will switch that, but other than that it was good! Of course I then ate too much and felt sick. Bleh.
Off to do minor upkeep to our house. :)

7 weeks today! I love moving up day. I am down 5 pounds, am eating very specifically, and feel mostly good. Ok, I have bad nausea every day, but I will take what I get for a healthy baby.
We are almost done building the grow room. I found a mini banana tree, mini tangerine tree, mini lemon tree, and mini lime tree to order. I can't wait to have tropical fruits and plants growing in my home! Also the vanilla and saffron. The grow room looks like a magical elevator right now so the kids love to play in it :P .
The 60 big chicks will be moving outdoors this weekend. Noisy buggers, they are very cute but I will not be sad to move them. Several have figured out how to fly the coop so it is not a surprise to see a chick strut into the kitchen. The bantams will move into the cage and will stay indoors for a few more months, but there are so few of them and they are so small that won't be a problem. Two banties turned out to be red frizzles, which I love, sooo happy.
My daffodils grew up and bloomed and there are bright patches of yellow all over the property. I had planted so many I didn't remember where I put them all and it was such a pleasant treat to just find them. I will definitely plant more this fall.
We have paid down over $9,000 since starting Dave Ramsey. We are almost out of credit card debt, and almost have both vehicles paid for. The closer we get the more inspired I am at the thought of our money being ours, not being owed to someone ever again. I will own the land and house by the time I am 38. The oppurtunities that will afford us overwhelms me!
School has been going wonderfully this week. We started a Lent series and the kids have such a good grasp on it. I so wish I had learned this as a child, but I hope my zest makes up for it. I am loving the stuff I learn as we homeschool as a family.
I made sauce yesterday so pizza is planned for lunch. Which means I must get off here and make some dough. :P

5 weeks. I have an abdominal separation, hence the obvious bump. I have kept up on eating well and am losing at a safe rate right now. Honestly the pic makes it look more obvious, I think it was holding up the camera. I really don't look THAT huge lol.
All my dreads are out now. I finished last night. Pure torture! Yay for healthy hair though, that I did not have to cut.
I had to stay home from church so I am trying to get the house sparkly before Brian gets back. Just wanted to post that while I had a chance.

Brian is a good man. :P He talked me down last night, we went over why I would all of a sudden want to do a major change to our home school. He asked if I felt overwhelmed(no).We figured out together that I feel under equipped in some ways. I am going to tweak a bit more and we will keep chugging away. The kids are all doing well. I was being reactive to some stuff I read on the Well Trained Mind site. Silly of me really.
Pippi has been wearing leotards over her diaper lately lol. It is the only way to keep her from getting completely naked and peeing on the floor all the time! She is a feisty little darling.
Jubilee is mellowing out finally and is a fun girly girl. She loves anything pink or sparkly. She wants to be a princess.
Griffon lost his first tooth yesterday. He started reading words! He loves Legend of Zelda.
Logan has a bossy streak. We are working on it. He is a really funny boy, with a very dry sense of humor.
Gavin is a sunbeam. Always grinning. He is kind- hearted and sensitive. He cries when he is upset, or if he thinks he disappointed someone. He loves the Lord and wants to be a Pastor.
Christian is methodical and artistic(weird combo). He gets very excited by things and his volume increases exponentially when he is happy/excited. He is sweet.
Trinity is discovering that she likes people and wants to look nice. Not overly made up, but she is taking care to style her hair now, or match her jewelery to her outfit. She has a biting wit and I have to remind her not to take it too far sometimes. She is smart and has her life mapped out. Our discussions about the twists and turns life can take make her more determined to make it work right lol.
Today I want to go to the library, clean the chicken cage, fold and put away 3 loads of laundry, and make a yummy meat dinner since Trinity is at the state youth convention. I need to get my head on straight and plan the rest of the years schoolwork. If it is planned and the photocopies are made I think I will do much better.

I am doing something really odd for me. I don't know why exactly, other than I am always trying to evaluate where we are, but I am looking at doing k-12 for the kids next year. Free curriculum and accountability sound like good things. Government program, secular worldview sound like bad things. I am really conflicted. For now I have only requested the booklet, and scoured the web looking for other testimonies. I really love our curriculum though, and think I would want to try to do both. Hmm...alot to consider.