I am so tired. So done with Drs.
I called my dr yesterday. He said that this was now an emergency situation, to go to the ER and get the D and C done. To not leave without having it done. I went. The ER dr agreed that there is retained tissue. He agreed that I warrant a D&C. He called the ob and she is too busy to do it right now. Send me home and she will see me next Thursday. I should try to stay in bed and rest, and they are sorry I can't stand up without blacking out. I am beyond baffled. I didn't want a D&C at first...I wanted this to happen naturally. It started too, but I knew it wasn't right/normal. I went to the Dr, followed advice, keep getting told the same thing. But no one is helping me!!! I am not a person who does well accepting help. I do not like to be weak. I can not even function physically right now. I am not myself. And I am scheduled to "meet" with the dr 2 full weeks after this started. I am too exhausted to know what to do. I believe fully that God will cover my healing, and I am loading up on iron and protein. I had encapsulated my placenta from Epiphany's birth, and am taking one pill per day. That has definitely helped. But...I feel so let down by the drs, by the system. I thought about going to a different hospital, but I am really just too sad and blown away to play this game. Ugh...I hate to whine, and I don't really even know what to say about it all, but it just isn't right.
Brian has been so kind and helpful. He has taken off work twice for this now(and if he doesn't work he doesn't get paid). He went to the store and bought me V8 juices and two roasts lol. He pats my arm or head every time he walks by. Little things that just let me know even more than ever that he loves me.
I will be a mom to a teenager in a week. Trinity is having a sleepover next Friday and she is very excited. She invited all the girls from youth group. I believe most of them are coming! I made plans for the boys to have a sleepover at their friends house that day. Lol...Once again, I am tired, and all the details are tiring. I just need to be back to full strength, like now. ;)